Having a week off!

I'm still on the diet I'm just taking this week off for weigh in!... To be honest I haven't the funds to get weighed as we went to download festival so that's another reason!

I'm still sticking to the diet so hopefully when I go back I would have lost lots!... Lol fingers crossed! I gained last week 1lb but I had a birthday BBQ so was expected I will be thin one day you just have to work at it!... Fingers crossed this week and next is a better one!... :)

BBQ, Friends And Food = Gain!

06-06-12

For my birthday I've had a BBQ jubilee theme and it was great... Great people and also great food!... How can you have a healthy BBQ!... Well because of this BBQ and over indulgence I had I've gained 2&1/2lb according to my scales!... This just means I've gotta work extra hard from now!... I haven't fell off the wagon just enjoyed myself a little too much perhaps? Lol!...

So as I stand 16.9... I need to be in the 15 mark soon which I haven't seen on the scales in like forever! <3

2012 is going to be my year!!

31/05/2012

It's been a while since I blogged I have been on and off weight watchers for months now and I went back upto 17st 3&1/2lb... I've been back on it 3 weeks now for good an I've lost 10lb so far!... Woop!... I am on a roll!... I am now 16st 7lb so another 3&1/2lb and I've lost a stone!...

I need to do this as I've got a major operation coming up!... Which is scary!... :(... But I've got this weight loss to take my mind completely off the operation otherwise I would be a mess!...

My little boy is my encouragement as I want to be a mummy he is proud of and that can play football with him an take him long bike rides etc... He's a sweetie and loves me for me!... Wouldn't change him for the world!... <3

2nd Week Back on Weight Watchers!

Well last week was my first week back on weight watchers it was also my \'star\' week an as we all know mother nature turns me into a machine!... But this week I fought back and lost 1/2lb!! Woo!...

I know it\'s not alot but that in itself is an accomplishment especially after gaining 2-3lb previous \'star\' weeks!... So happy!...

As I said before this is my second week ad I feel I\'ve done brilliant!... But my scales say differently!... I\'ve started Zumba been for 3 weeks it\'s great I go with friends and it\'s more of a night out then exercise haha!... A laugh and half!... Get weighed at 5:30 tonight so fingers crossed!... Woo!...

These Are My Confessions :(

I\'m going to blog about my real feelings as I need to talk to someone even if it is over the computer!

Don\'t get me wrong when I\'m with friends I am bubbly and very talkative but I hide what I\'m really thinking and feeling behind my personality, truth is I absolutely HATE myself!... I can\'t stand myself and I\'m almost certain if it wasn\'t for Bradley I would have self harmed or something!... Don\'t get me wrong Brett tells me everyday he loves me and I no he does but how can I be happy about it when I don\'t love myself!?,

I need to gain more self belief, confidence and just generally look at myself like I should instead of looking in the mirror and wanting to smash it up and cry as I do most days I actually want to stand there and think \'WOW\' look at me now!... I\'m really down in the dumps about myself recently and I don\'t like my thoughts!... It\'s awful actually sat there thinking about how you\'d be happier in death!... I shouldn\'t think that way but I admit it some days I do!... But I have an amazing little boy who is 13 months old who makes me feel so much better about myself he loves me for me!... When I have a down moment all I need is a cuddle from my peanut and I\'m instantly better in my mind if it wasn\'t for Bradley and Brett I would just crumble and quiet possibly I wouldn\'t be here right now :/



This is what keeps me going!!!

IM BACK!!!!

I\'m back and I\'m not the same chirpy person as before!!.. I\'m depressed and do low about my weight!... I\'m back on weight watchers I stopped November/December time as I couldn\'t afford it and because of this I gained!... Well not much as I maintained for a while!... But as off last week the 1st march I\'m back on it!... My weigh in weight was 17st 3lb!... BUT!!! I\'m struggling as mother nature as paid me a visit this week an I struggle Everytime she visits!... I\'m hoping for 1lb off!... Get weighed Wednesday so I\'m really nervous!... Also looking for more tasty meals that are healthy!...

Fingers crossed I can do this!

Long Time No Speak!!!!

Well it's been a while since I last posted... I have spent a few weeks bobbin up an down losing then gaining then losing then gaining was a tough time and I felt so let down by it I almost caved it we had a take away an that made me realise food was still taking over me!... I have to live with the fact that I love food!... So I have embraced this and set myself some tasks along the lines of when I reach -30lb then I will allow myself a treat I.e pizza,KFC etc... This seems to have worked I now weigh...

16st 9.5lb woop!!!

So happy about the numbers on the scales... Gotta lose 9pm before Christmas!!... Challenge and half do fingers crossed!!...


I'll try to keep blogging as much as poss!!...